that's what i think
so don't try to change it ,please
نشر في 29 يناير 2020 وآخر تعديل بتاريخ 14 أكتوبر 2020 .
i never understood why i still in a good situation for a long period then suddenly i become so sad ;i can't describe my feelings; like i'm an alien ! ;i can't tell any one what happens with me ;i just start in being angry all the time ,so nervous, and liking the silence; not really but; i hate talking a lot with people; they disturb me; they make me worst ;so i like listening to a music; with a high level; like i'm doing now ,or writing because i see that it's one of the best solutions , yes! because if i don't ; i will become more wounded ;and i don't want this ,i never like this moments; when i hate in them my self ;my life, the world and every thing, i hate when i wish that i die; when i wish that i can suicide ; when my dream become to have a shotgun and use it to finish my pain , i really hate this moments ; and i hope that they don't still us a part of my memories ,i abhor the idea of living the rest of my life with a broken heart without having any thing to do ,i dislike that others look at me like i am some one weak looking for their help , damn them ! ; i am sure that one day they will be a reason for my loss , they will be the cause why i fall down ; so i really hate them with their world
i wish that i stop hurting my self , and taking care about others , that i become like them; a devil never think about the others feelings ,i hope they still far from me , that i don't meet any one of this twisters , that i forget all of them , but never forgive ! because i don 't love any one ; all what happen in my past i will forget it , and i will throw any one away from my life if i see that he has the same effect ,like the last ones ;
so my last hope will be that in future i can know the truth of everyone ;before i leave him in , that i can know the real from the fake
i wish the bad luck for all my haters and this people who injure me a lot;i hope that they meet a deceivers like them , and that they live what they leave me live it , and i'm completley broken pained and injured ,so i wish the worst moments and life for you and that i can see you crying and broken to a lot of pieces and no one help you ,that you will be hurted ; because you are a devils ;and that's what you deserve ;
ودادكلما حاولنا النهوض و الاستمرار وجدنا الحياة تجرّنا غصبا إلى المنحدر لذلك قررنا التشبث أكثر و عدم الاستسلام مهما حدث , أجل نحن هاته الفئة !